Honestly v v v disappointed in my results. and myself. And I'll probably lock this blog soon cos I want a place where I can rant freely without being judged.
But seriously. I have never been good in Chinese but this kind of results.. and seeing everyone else so happy at getting the marks they want while you yourself have some sucky score just sucks. Idek. 心痛不已。and then all you can do is smile and pretend like you don't care and everything is rainbows and sparkles. that sucks.
I don't know how to break the news to my parents.
It hurts to see the disappointment in their face. It hurts to know that they have so much faith in me but I let them down. idek ok. It's so easy to set the goal. But the road there is fucking filled with discouragement and disappointment and so much shit.
But some people made everything better yesterday. Esp platoonmates. Everything was alright and happy and gay in the gym.
okay I really don't know but I don't want to screw up my whole life in RG.



you only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow. this opportunity comes once in a lifetime

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